40 Something

I was texting with a friend today.  We were discussing how we wish we didn't need time to recharge.   That we could be adventurous or at least full of energy EVERY day.   Then it hit me.   God knows us.  He provided a day of rest.  We need to embrace that.  Maybe that means redoing and rethinking our activity on that day?   Maybe it means we need to embrace rest. I know for me it's not restful to keep up with other people.   Mostly because, for me at least, when I read about others, I automatically compare where I am right now to where they are in a post, a conversation, a passing moment, or something that may not even be true.  Constantly measuring myself and comparing. That my friends...is death. I'm learning that in my "quest" to better myself...or become more spiritual...or manage my time better...or fill in the blank...the problem is that I'm focusing on ME. I need to die to self in order to fully live. To fully see ...

Some days my brain wants to explode.  Not just my brain but my emotions, too. Every so often I have to just get a pen and notebook and do a brain dump.  Just write anything and everything down that crosses my mind.  It helps me to be able to organize my thoughts and very often helps me to see underlying issues and problems.   Last night was a brain dump night.  What I discovered is not profound, but it speaks truth into where I am right now.  My discovery? I have too many voices speaking into my life right now. Social media, books, opinions of others, my own ridiculous weird ideas, my incessant search for more information on any particular subject, podcasts, the flipping Enneagram, and the list goes on and on and on. Did you sense my irritation? The problem with all of these things speaking into my life is that it becomes harder and harder to hear the Holy Spirit.  As a result, I get anxious, feel out of balance, and lost.   My usual tra...